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soo... [Wednesday
November 30th, 2005]
[ mood | depressed ]

hmm... well im single yet again... yeah... hmm first off i was with clint w. && that was from saturday night when 13am came over to my house && play'd until the next tuesday which was last week... soo the next day clint still want'd me to go to band practice with him so i did at my grandmas house soo yeah that was kewl... i told him not to wait for me && that night after he drop'd me off he took my advice... soo now he is with lil britt... which doesnt bother me like everyone thinks it does... i did it... he didnt end it... soo i have no right as a human being to be upset over this... hmm well on monday night me && layton start'd going out but he told me not to tell anyone until today so i didnt but i guess he never said he couldnt tell people... he told i guess a ton of people at the mid-high && such that we were together && thats fine... i wasnt even really sure that we were really together if that makes any since... but matt c was mad at me until last night && it was tearing me apart i was completly emotional... && cry'd alot && i absolutly hate crying... well anyways... last night when i was talking to layton i just ask'd if we could be friends for now b/c there is a LOT of krap going on right now && i dont want to pull him into it... or cause anymore drama than there is now... he says he wants me to go to church tonight b/c he wants to see me && i wanna go but only to be with him... i hate church && the people there give me dirty looks like they are better than me && i just want to be next to him with out causing any problems... i do like him alot but i dont know how to deal with some of this... ohh yeah && clint b. call'd me up the other day && told me that he still likes me && wants me back && he went on with that for a while && i just told him that i will think about it you know? i mean i hadnt talk'd to the guy since like august && then for some reason out of the blue he wants to be with me? he doesnt even know me now... a lot has happen;d since we stop'd talking... i dont understand guys right now... && layton didnt exactly make things easy yesterday... after i told him im better off alone for now he sound'd all deprest && i felt like krap... i couldnt see him acting the way he did && i just want'd to be like "i was dumb i want you now" but i couldnt.... it wouldnt be right for me or him... but he told me just to tell him when i was ready... && i will... i dont know... i dont want to hurt him... && i know i always say i cant be hurt but if you had seen me the last too nights you would have thought my mom died... i dont know... im not as strong as i claim to be... && i dont want to be hurt... but yeah i think this is basically a pretty good update... i could make it much longer && go on with my feelings but i wont... so yeah enjoy i guess... byyeees!!

-shane((brani))

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well... [Tuesday
November 22nd, 2005]
[ mood | deprest ]

i feel like hell right now... ohh && im working on quiting cursing && smoking anything at all... IM DONE!! hmm well yeah last night i cry'd for like ever... it suck'd... i broke up with clint this morning in a note && i feel awful c'os of the note he gave me this morning that i hadnt read until just a short time ago... its noo good... tyler && billy gave me until wednesday, they made a bet on how long it was going to last && i talk'd to tyler last night... i dont know... && i talk'd to nick last night for a while && he just told me to do what i want to do && i did but i just feel horrid about the things that are going to happen b/c of this whole ordeal... i mean im sure wewont be as close as before && he may never want to talk to me again && that would just kill b/c i love talking to the guy && i honestly do like him but the way he is reminds me of this one other person that i just cant seem to get over && i cant take it... i just want to die... i dont know... but yeah i have had a TON of crap on my mind && last night talking to nick felt ohh soo good... i mist him like krazy && he felt bad for me thinking he hate'd me && told me to NEVER think that again... so yeah he wasnt mad... he just had stuff going on... && im gonna try to start talking to tyler again 'cos i miss talking to him all the time... he was one of my most trust'd friends then we just stop'd talking one day... but im gonna go now.. byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))

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hmm... [Monday
November 21st, 2005]
well this weekend was krazy... i havent talk'd to chelsea in a while && i miss her... yep yep ohh i have a bf now... yep yep clinton... umm but yeah i feel weird 'cos i still like his best friend... my ex-bf && the guy my best budday likes now... hmm so yeah but i dont know... gonna go dont wanna talk about it... byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))
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hmm... [Friday
November 18th, 2005]
[ mood | bored ]

*Your face strums a chord in my heart. Please don't ever change...*

Young Hearts flutter in an instance.
Wise hearts never knew why.
Old hearts know it too well.

CRAZYGONUTS
What!
You know it.


one pill makes you larger and the other one makes you small, and the ones that mother gives you dont do anything at all.
Go Ask Alice.


"And your friends treat you like a guest."


So you think you can tell. Heaven from hell?


WOW I DONT KNOW
wicked cool.
WICKED GREEN
!!!21!@!@!!!!!!121!!!!!@#44#####$3!~~~~~~
# THAT SHIT!
#'s that shit.
Nigel.cool = true
WOaH!!@!


DONT YOU WANT SOMEBODY TO LOVE!
I DOOOOOO!!
will you be the one i love?
i swear my love will never die for you!!!
yeah yeah yeah.!


your eyes!
they are beautiful.
especially when they sparkle in the sun.
uhh yeah


Uehgm!
wow prounounce that ^^^


A FORTY FOUR CALIBER BULLET STRAIGHT THROUGH MY HEART.


We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you
We knew you didn't have it in you


And so this night ends. But when will its lonelyness?


Oh baby Ive been to dazed and confused
And back again and I still feel you
But baby, maybe you can feel me
So I can die easy…
Forever


No one Knows Why I am All Alone Again


Breathe in Deep, let it out Slow


She said This is what you get when everything you do in life's a mistake....Try not to fuck things up again Oh no....I think I'll find another bar.


You see my heart, you look away, you see my wrist I know your pain...


You could slit my throat and with my last gasping breath i'd appologize for bleeding on your shirt...


My words are slurring but I won't stop singing-Deja Vrooom by Rory


Fan-friggin-tastic!


Oh, I would kill for the Atlantic, but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing.

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heyyy [Thursday
November 17th, 2005]
[ mood | apathetic ]

hmm well im BOARD!! yep yep && i am hella smart 'cos i was gone yesterday && now im done with everything so WHAT NOW!! tee hee rawr hmm well i dont know... i mist people yesterday but whatevery... ohh im ground'd yet again for my grades && i have to do schooly stuff for 1 && 1/2 hours every night now to get to even listen to musik soo yeah it sucks ... i got told im trying to kill my g-ma but trust me if that was my mission she wouldnt be here so whatevery... im thinking really hard about just leaving but i dont know where to go... i could go to my moms but i dont know about that but i dont know how much longer i can stand being with that bitch soo yeah... hmmm... rawr its ohh soo kold in here... im wanna go home && sleep... chelsea is having issues as am i... && i feel awful for her but i dont know what to do... i dont think that there is anything that i can do for her to fix it all... i wish i could just run away && be better but i guess that wont happen... im trying this new thing... its call'd not caring what other people think about me... it works for a while but now days it is to easy && im becoming apathetic to most people... && thats not what i want but i cant help it... it seems like noo cares about me soo why bother you know? i dont know but im gonna go now... byyeees!!

-shane((brandi))

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well [Tuesday
November 15th, 2005]
[ mood | sick ]

hmm... i feel really sick at the moment && i want to go home && just lay in bed && sleep... i havent seen billy && i honestly doubt she will be here today... she didnt call me this morning... well she has some issues of her own to deal with so i do not blame her for staying home... i look like shit right now && noo one could convince me otherwize... hmm well i talk'd to chelsea last night for about 2 hours as usual... i dont know... it kinda seems like this is our stopping point... i feel like we arent gonna go anywhere from here... but i'd like to... i dont know... i am being to realize that i DO like clint but soo do others && plus i doubt he still likes me... my chance is gone now but its noo ones fault but my own... ohh well i get what i deserve i suppose... but im gonna go now... im gonna look for a new journal site... yep yep hmm well byyeees!!

-shane((brandi))

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bang bang by le tigre [Monday
November 14th, 2005]
In New York the shooting of another unarmed black man raises further questions about NYPD tactics. On Friday an undercover policeman shot and killed Patrick Doorsman.
Murder is murder
Why're they confused?
Another man dead
I read it in the news
Who gave them the fucking right
To run around like they own the night?
Oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Wrong fucking time
Wrong fucking place
There is no fucking way
This is not about race
Who's gonna call 9-1-1
When they can't tell a wallet
From a mother fucking gun?
Oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Bang bang daddy I want you dead
Bang bang daddy get out of my head
Bang bang daddy I want you dead
Bring me Giuliani's head
Oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
Oh oh bang! bang!
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RAWR!! [Monday
November 14th, 2005]
[ mood | silly ]

hmm well im REALLY board right now... i finish'd my class assignment soo yeah nothing left to do now... hmm soo i guess that means its time to discuss my weekend... yep yep hmm alright...
firday--- i got home from school && sat around for a bit then billy call'd ohh && by the way my && billy are kooly once again... but anyways back to the story at hand... billy call'd && was like what are you doing? && i was in the shower or getting out one of the two && yeah i was like well i dont know yet 'cos i have-ta call chelsea well yeah im gonna skip all the phone calls && get to the funner stuffs... i meant chelsea at the mall in front of the arcade then we walk'd around for a bit && found matt to see if we could get cheeper tickets to see saw II well yeah matts friend wasnt working so by that time billy had shown up... && she got her hair cut && its really cute yep yep but then we went to find chelseas moms so she could get sarah to get our tickets 'cos we were too young && what not... then we walk'd around some more... && aj kept saying stuff like he want'd to talk to us but never did weird... then we saw kyler && i stood around && talk'd to him mmhmm 'cos kyler is definatly a beast yo yo tee hee hahahaha but yeah then more walk'n ohh yeah we play'd with stuff in romancing the stone && that was purdy fun tee hee... then the movie which i had chelsea sneek an energy drink for me... the movie was good then we stood out side && chelsea talk'd to holly && holly, melani, lydia, && kale kid-knapped me in hollys car && were gonna take me to ashley grace but yeah the whole point was to make sure that im good enough for chelsea yep yep which i got their approval EEEEEEEEE!! soo yeah but then chelsea came over && stay'd at my house til oneit was kooly then satuday... i dont remember the morning but that night i went with jake && chelsea to nicoles((josh's gf's house)) && hung out there for a while then went to chelseas for a while then sarah took me home yep yep && yesterday i was sick soo all i did was talk on the phone but yeah i dont wanna write noo mores.. BLAH!! byyeees!!

-shane((brandi))

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hii [Friday
November 11th, 2005]
[ mood | EEEEEEEEEEE!! ]

heyheyhey---
well hmm gahh im ohh soo board just sitting in my computer class fun stuff yo yo!! tee hee hmm well im in a pretty good mood at the moment... i got to take a nap yesterday && i talk'd to summer but still have yet to give her the note i wrote her but yeah i can do that today i suppose... hmm well chelsea call'd && woke me up yesterday at 6:00pm but i didnt mind b/c i like to talk to her... i finally got the guts to bring up the subject of me liking her && all yep yep... which i do A LOT!! we both know now that jake doesnt mind so thats good... && she was gonna come over last night but kaity && mcnair wouldnt stop fighting soo she told them just to take her home 'cos she got tired of it which is completly understandable... hmm well im hanging out with her AT LEAST once this weekend but hopefully more && maybee jake && trevour wants me to call him soo we can hang out sometime as well so yeah this weekend should be the bomb diggity fo realz HAHAHAHA i crack myself up but yeah... whatevery... it would seem that me && billy are noo longer friends or even common human beings... it would seem that we have become enemys... but im not going to go into details... i do care but im not going to mess with it... i dont see a point in just making things worse than they are... i still dont see how this is my fault or why soo many people are mad at me but either they will get over it or they wont but either way im not going to say im sorry b/c i feel as if i have nothing to say sorry for && that would mean i was taking the blame for the whole ordeal but i guess this is just a part of life... hmm i think that joey is peircing his lip or togue today... i brought him my old eyebrow rings 'cos he want'd the orange one... but im gonna go ahead && get off here for the time being... ype yep byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))

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interesting stuff yo! [Thursday
November 10th, 2005]
[ mood | lost && confused ]

hmm... well yeah i talk'd to jake yesterday && told him how i feel about chelsea && he didnt care so yeah that was good to know && he end'd up calling her when he got home && told her that i like'd her && she told him that she like'd me as well so i was all excite'd you know? but yeah the only thing about that is now i dont know how to bring it up... "ohh you know that thing that jake told you yesterday... yeah i'd like to talk about it" i mean come on how dumb would that be? gahh yep yep hmm but yeah now i know though && i feel much better... but billy is being a bitch about the whole thing... saying that she feels left out && 2nd best && all that bullshit... i mean i feel that way all the time i just let it go && move on && she is making it seem like the gawd damn end of the world... it sucks 'cos she's my best friend but i guess she doesnt get it... she is gonna make me have to turn away from her 'cos if you doesnt calm down on the whole thing then im just not gonna mess with it... && she is making me out to be the one in the wrong but yet i would have just left it alone && i just dont see how this is such a big deal... i have talk'd to a few different people && all were on myside although i hate the fact that me && billy on on opposite sides... i talk'd to matt b,jake,chelsea,kayse,troy && tervour && they all thought that she was just being dumb about it... && i cant say that i dont agree... but yeah on a much better note... me && kayse are getting close again... && thats kooly because i can always use a few good friends... especially since i seem to loose soo many... sometimes i wonder why that is... is it because i am not capable of treating correctly? i mean come on... i feel like i push everyone away when i need them most but i dont know... maybee thats just my specialty you know? but yeah im gonna go now... byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))

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well well well [Wednesday
November 9th, 2005]
hmm well i have a new major crush right now... i REALY like her... && for the past couple of days i have talk'd to her on the phone for at least 2 hours && yesteryda her && jake came over for a few hours to watch movies && such && satuday we hung out at my house && watch'd SAW && friday night we watch'd a stoopid soft porn but yeah i dont know... she is just ohh soo easy to talk to... but im not sure if i should tell her that i like her and all that stuff yet 'cos i do trust her && i dont want to make things weird... i mean she like girls as do i so thats not it... but i dont know... she keeps telling me that she wants a girlfriend but who knows ahh i gotta go byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))
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hii [Monday
November 7th, 2005]
[ mood | hyper ]

heyheyhey--

hmm well my weekend was fun... thursday suck'd but i got rid of a useless soo-called-friend... friday i got 20$ for cleaning the WHOLE house by myself yep yep now i only have 12 more $ til i can get a new piercing YAY!! yep yep well then billy came over && we went out to eat then went to the $ movies then ditch'd after like 2 minutes... then went to home run pizza && hung out with jake fun stuff then we went to hastings && rent'd movies && went home then later chelsea && jake came over && we watch'd what was suppose to be a horror movie but turn'd out being a soft porn yep yep now a TON of people think i like those things... but i would rather have the real deal haha i mean COME ON!! tee hee hmm then saturday i went to a soccer game, ate at pizza hut the went to get my hair chopp'd off good times my friend good times... then chelsea brought SAW over && we watch'd that... it was good, i really like chelsea but i dont think that she is aware soo yeah who knows... then sunday i went to church then out to eat then shopping then i went to my moms for a bit then i went home && talk'd on the tell-ee but yeah i gotsta go now... BYYEEES!!

-shane((brandi))

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well... [Thursday
November 3rd, 2005]
hmm well okay im at schooly right now... it prettu much SUCKS GIANT GREEN BALLS!! yep yep i hate schooly of course 'cos who doesnt i mean COME ON!! tee hee... well yeah i stay'd home yesterday... *cough cough* 'cos i was sickly *cough cough* yeah whatevery i just didnt want to take those stupid retakes because honestly i could care less... i HATE pictures unless i get to pose the way i want... mmhmm... gawsh... i found out something weird about myself not long ago... umm yeah i get nervous... i laugh like a HELLA LOT it sucks... like i dont know why i mean its not like i will just burst out into laughter for no reason but once i start laughing it hard for me to stop... its quite embarrissing i must say... ohh the cops are looking for todd again... he shot some guy in a drive by... poor todd... i mean it was stoopid for him to shoot a guy && all but todds kooly && he has enough problems as it is... but yeah i dont think i did my assignment correct so im gonna go... byyeees!!

-shane((brandi))
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RAWR [Thursday
October 27th, 2005]
hmm well board && billy hit me what a whore i mean GAHH haha but yeah i had a krazy kooly dream last night about tyler... how weird is that? my friends how weird is that? yeah hmm well i guess im not going to tylers friday so im free so i will prolly go steal jake && make him go somewhere with me because he is my new foudn whore these days yep yep he is... but yeah im gonna go ahead && get off this beast mmhm so byyeees!!
-shane((brandi))
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WOW!! [Monday
October 24th, 2005]
HMM THIS WEEKEND -WAS- THE -SHIT- OHH YEAH... hmm yep yep well i dont habe much time so thats all for now... peace out... BYYEEES!!

-shane((brandi))
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well... [Tuesday
October 18th, 2005]
[ mood | bored ]

hmm this is only my second entry on here, quite sad to be honest but yeah thats how it goes i suppose, well i didnt go to schooly yesterday because i was sickly *cough cough* tee hee yep ohh well hmm gahh im ohh soo board right now, billy stay home today && now i have no one to talk to really && that saddens me greatly ohh well hmm i hope i dont have a ton of make up work b/c i was would cry if i did so sad, but yeah, geez i want to go back home && sleep well i have a MAJOR crush on this kid, && we're friends && i trust him with everything, my life, my thoughts, my heart but yet i dont think he sees me as more than a friends although i wish he would but who knows, i guess i would have to ask to know for sure but im a bit of a panzy when it comes to these types of things, actually im a bit of a panzy when i have to do anything of importance. but thats just who i am i suppose. but hmm i have to get off for now since im at schooly && what-not, CHOW-NESS!!
-shane((brandi))

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heeey all!! [Thursday
October 13th, 2005]
[ mood | depressed ]

hii... well im new to this although this is honestly my second site i screw up yesterday when typing my user name so i just made a new one yep yep... im so board... right now im at schooly suppose to be working on a webpage that we had to start from scratch but im really lazy today && i feel && look like utter krap && i want to go home && sleep til forever cause im just that kooly but i cant so... OHH i had an awful dream last night that made me wake up with tear filled eyes && the more i thought about it the more i those tears fell down my face... i had a dream that i got in a MAJOR fight over a dog with my grandmother && you broke the neck of my guitar... i was pist when i saw her this morning cause i couldnt find it but i left it in my brothers room last night haha but yeah i guess thats about all i have to say so im out... BYYEEES!!
-shane((<<< my loverly boy_ish name tee hee))

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